Hi there.
I guess that this is harder than I thought it would be but I have to do something. I will stop at nothing to make my children happy.
Last year, I woke up one morning and my life had changed. My husband of 10 years was sleeping with his boss. Now the infidelity was bad enough but he refused to leave. He would lay in bed holding me as I cried telling me if I loved him I would let him have this. So , as a loving wife I did.
It tourtured me beyond all belief and as a good mother I hid it from my kids. They are 16 and 10.
However, kids are intuitive, they feel when soemthing is wrong. My eldest, she figured it out. She hated it but she did what she had to do to survive.
She asked him why......He was infuriated.
Regardless of the details.....he beat me to a state that was dangerous. I was scared to tell anyone and ashamed and more than anything I was terrified that my youngest....my son....would find out. So I started lying to him. For that I will never forgive myself.
So over the past year he has raped me of all the funds that I have ever had. Taking me to court for more money every three months, trying on the 14th of this month to have my children and myself evicted in 15 days. What kind of man would do that over the holidays?
I have been collecting unemployment for a few months as I got laid off from work due to lack of work. It is not even enough to get by. I don't qualify for any help because of the house that we jointly own having equity that I can't touch. Did I mention that he has not paid the mortgage that he was court ordered to pay for over 4 months. I got a PFA so he can't frighten or hurt me or my kids anymore.
Please help me to give my children christmas. I have nothing. I have no car, no money, nothing to use to get money. He has left us a torn and tattered mess of a family. We do have each other but after all that my children have been through this year....they deserve more than nothing.
I know that Christmas is about giving.....
I have nothing but love to give and although that is enough for me, for a child it is a kick in the already brusied emotions that their father has left them with.
I am greatful to be done with the 10 years of abuse.....but I am disgusted that I can't make my kids feel better.
Thank you sooooooooo much for anything you can do.
M in PA
